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Love is blood

Love is needed for you to live, without love we would eventually die, as if our blood drained slowly. If you have no blood, you will die. If you have no love you will loose any will to live and thus try suicide over and over till it is accomplished. You try to save them before it is done, their time is limited unless you can save them. The love you have is your blood. The blood of your feelings. Without any support for you, you enter depression. The depression goes deeper till it is thus deep depression. That drives you to try suicide and bad relationships cause this sometimes. A 16yr old commited suicide recently. He lived round my old city where I was born and raised till my dad died. He commited suicide cause like me and my mom.

They had a bad relationship. I had not realized that anyone at my church i confident it even a bit cared about me. Those who went and prayed were deeply sad. One told me they saw that boy dead on the slab and thought of me. They said they didn't wanna see me end up like that, my uncle aka the church's pastor told me the same. This world has suicide atempts everyday, think about the lives we could save, just look for the signs of depression.

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Stabbed in the back

I thought I met two good friends that were around my age. I thought we were friends.  One of them asked to be my bf online. I accepted. I find two days later in the middle of our convorsation he pretends to not know who I am and act like his account was hacked. I know thats BULL SHIT. Forget him then? I talk to the other boy tellin him what just happened. The words that hurt me most were typed there.I explained what just happened he said in quote "I don't care" He then said he's confused, then that he was really busy and just said bye. I have been stabbed in the back. I wanna believe what they say is true. I know though it is all just lies. I have been abandoned again! I wanna get past this but, I was used by them.Damnit!! I never should have fallen for it all.Betrayed,backstabbed,and used. I want to kick this kid's fucking ass. We know I will never get that chance. I want to show that ass hole how much I am hurt. I wanna inflict pain on him. I know it aint right. I want to do it though. I will never get the chance, I need some time to heal...