if not me then who if now then when

If it isn't me to get free then who will. If not to get my freedom then when the fuck will I get it. Friends made me realize I will get free and soon. I know if I can get free others can too. I saw people come and go. I tell you one fucking thing. The little kids in this world are babied too damn much. By the time you learn for real that life is fucked up. Your already suffering. I think we need to stop telling these lies to these little kids and I don't care how young they are if they can go to school and talk. You must teach them about the realworld. Not the fake world you show them and say you can make friends and the world is so happy.Stop that bullshit! The world is a struggle and fight. I can get through it with friends yes, but it sure as hell isn't a happy life. You say to the little kids just walk away from fights and drugs. You cannot always do that no!. Fights sometimes cannot be avoided. Prepare the young kids while they are young so they have a better chance to take on the world then we who have suffered now. I know it isn't surefire and I know they might not be happy. If you continue liying to them. It won't turn out good usually. The world kills. Stop the lies before its too late. Save these lives while their young. Parents who think this is wrong. Think to yourselves. You want them to know how to fight life and depression or end up suicidal. The way to save lives starts wit showing little kids the truth.

I know what I shalll do

My dream is to be a singer and I don't mean any jonas brothers, mileycryrus, and fuckin disney bull shit. I mean independent self story songs. I wanna be like my fav band papa roach. I wanna be singing my mind. Telling you what I think and how I feel about everything. I don't care what disagreements it would bring. You don't like you don't listen. I wanna be having a good time and telling you my stories in my music and music videos. Don't care if im number one. I want people listening to me and thats all I want. I wanna show you my mind and the places of it and I will sing it at the top of my lungs screaming into your ears. Letting my story be told and you will hear what I have to say while rocking out to the music as I scream and sing as best I can to sound well. I will not just be loud, I will tell the truth and sing it well. Do not fear the words I say I promise it will sound good and not just a loud screaming maniac. I cannot garuntee however I wouldn't be crazy.

I'm getting away with happiness????????

It's been a few days since me feeling depressed. I find it amazing I lasted so long. Im finding it easier to get though life with friends. It is love and friends that get me through I love you all. I don't know how I am makin it through. It is a miricale and life goes on and I love the friends I've made and kept.

I wish you knew my side

Wish you knew how I feel. Wish you knew what I mean. Wish you knew my hate for you. Wish you knew how much I wanna get away. Wish you knew how much I despies you. My mother my ass. Your not much of one and that much I know. Don't tell me I am wrong, do not say you know right. I have seen the pain I've endured during my stay here. I want nothing more than to be away, You say you know when you don't. I know it's all I got right now. It doesn't seem fair. I make the best of what I got. With the internet as my lifeline, my getaway. Reallife is so complicated. When yet here I can let myself free and let my mind wonder as I listen to the music to set my mind at ease. I will forgive, but I wont forget and I hope you know you've lost my respect. That is one of my favourite song quotes. Those are some of my feelings towards my mom. Your fucking game is senseless. I get depressed cause of you... you fucking bitch. I hate your guts to the fucking core. I love and respect my friends.... but ceartainly don't respect you.