Smiling or stress

Leave to love or stress stay in stress longer and bring in more stress or leave to love. Tell me what you think I should do. I want to smile not be stressed out. I always say love is blood. This life of mine is dead if i have no love. tress or leave to love. Tell me oh tell me which do you think I should do? I know what I think is right.

Inside me

I know the world is confusing and We can't be sure of anything anymore. I found love inside myself. I found it and I never expected too. I don't care bout being succesfull. I care bout being in a place im loved and cared about rather than rich and famous. You can tell me I need to worry bout education and stuff. I understand I need an education. I do not think I will go on to college. I would rather spend that time getting away from it all here and I know you will say go to college and get a better education so you can move out then. I need to leave as soon as I people. I want you to understand I wanna put love before myself and education. I will put love before everything even money and jobs. I will put love before dreams and even more. I would spend my life in a place of love instead of the fame and money. I would spend my life loved in the streets rather than in rich home and cars. I need none of that stuff. I put what is first for me and that is love. I say screw the educators who say I am wrong. LOVE comes first. You can't tell me love is pointless. I love first before anything. I found love and struggle inside myself and I swear this I have. The struggle I keep beating it and continue to.

DONE WITH IT!

Never again am I adding msn contacts from blogger ever. I am tired of this... not naming anyone I am having issues with some of them. I don't talk to them oh I'm not a good friend. I am here at my comp. almost 12-16 hrs a day and you dare tell me we never talk and it's my fault?! Oh im sorry I can't go watch tv in the other room im sorry you care so much and it hurts when we can't talk. Im so sorry I want time to myself. I am sorry im such a fuckin problem with watching tv for a little while or playing a game uh im a fucking teenager. Yes your my friend. No I don't message you all the time cause I feel if your wantin to talk to me then just message me I don't mind. I don't notice when everyone is online I have so many friends on msn. I am sorry you see it this way. Left my heart open for you and helped you and you helped me. You want to throw this out... FUCK... fine. I don't need the drama now please calm down or just stop... I am sorry. I just wanna be friends and please stop the arguing.

Look at this place

This is the world we live in and fight in. I cannot say stop the fighting. I say find love and friends and fight back. We need to survive not to fall. We need to stay in fight and help others and we need to do it now. I swear we need the love and friends and I am your damn proof. Live a lie and fall live the truth and survive .My eyes tell a story of sorrow and happiness. Which on is more powerfull you decide. I think you know. Look into my eyes read my story as if it were an open book. I have nothing in my story to hide. Look at the place we call our homes. Usually theres something behind closed doors. Some times it is as it appears to be. Rather sex, drugs, crime, or any kind of abuse. Watch the ambulances and police. Watch the fires burn and look at the scared people. We are finding it harder to be happy are we not? I think we need to be happy with love to fight. If we fight depressed it seems pointless or so I think. Are you happy and can you fight. If so help others to be happy and find love. To fight as well. Listen to me and how I speak. I have seen the place we live in... this world. No more secreats, no more lies. It is time to find the truth and fight for our lives. We may be worth saving in the long run. We all deserve the love. Find the truth in this world and you may get depressed... read the signs of people. You will know what I mean. Find friends and love then fight back.