my heart has told me

I made my choice, my chance at a local relationship has come true. I meet up with him soon for a weekend. when theres noise about dont come a knocking. I know he will make me happy as i shall live to make him happy. Whispering those sweet nothings into eachother's ears. I am called his pup simply for my furry side. The feelng of being called that for a reason or another seems to make me smile. It is different from most people that is true. I do not care about money or success. I do not care for college either only to make him happy. I am not sure if anyone even looks here anymore. I have not had the urge to post recently. I will get the my ged and job training at jobcorp. I will move out of here and live with him hopefully.

TORN BETWEEN THE TWO!

Here i am once again, in a mess... I love two guys one on the other side of the world and the other an hour away. One so loving and yet very mean at times even though hes awesome and an amazing singer ( the aussie boy). The close guy well hes seductive and hot. He shows alot of romance and passion. He let's me by myself... I just don't know how to choose.

The day I left the womb

I thought i'd post a song that describes my life story or at least some of it. The part of my horrible mother... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jae7G6OAc3Y

Revenge?

Is it so bad to want revenge or no? I am confused in this life...I lost my loved one to the damned well lets just say...my closest friend was a rat. It is so hard to live without my true love... tho I have also fell in love with this aussie boy whos hot and a great singer... so kind. Idk if I can love like I did for my true love.. I don't know who to turn to anymore my only person to guide me on this earth is no longer apart of my life sadly.... HELP ME SOMEONE. I need guidance I cannot do this alone im only scared and confused... please I dont wanna be alone