Thursday, April 29, 2010

HEY! HEY! HEY! HEY! HEY! You know I love it when your down on your knees im a junkie for the way that you please! OH! I love music even if the lryics are ditry I love them( even if it turns me on) Haha I am in such a dirty mood. I wanna say this. Do you people think gay is a choice and if so, why. If not why. I am curious for your opinions. I had argument with a friend today. He thinks gay is a choice(I know he is bi though he may be gay) and I disagree with him. I believe it isnt a choice. What are your thoughts?

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Fuck family they are all backstabbers

I went to the therepist today with my mom... professional help oh thats great! SOS help im gonna go on a rampage in my head.
The therepist thought I was racist... which I am not. We started talkin bout why I am not in public school she says I will grow up to be a scared man... Oh by that point I wanted to throw her through that window and watch her fall twelve stories. I find out my half bro printed out all my recent facebook messages and showed my mom. I was starting to think I could trust him.This is fucked up. Fuck family. Duck your professional help. I don't need them I got friends I can trust. I swear my half bro.... He is outta his fucking mind! When I think I can trust someone. Its the same ol story. He's lost he's outta his fucking mind!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

My respect

To earn my respect you have to be nice to me and care about me love me as a friend who whatever just love me. You cannot make me depressed and talk bad about me ... then my respect would surely fall in you. I do not care if your my mom, my bro, a random adult. You earn and can loose my respect. If you give me no reason to respect you well I show you none. You disrespect me when you talk bad bout me. My family has no respect from me cept 1-3 ppl in it. I do find that my half brother seems to care that I never knew till recently. As for the rest FUCK THEM. You have to understand my family as in the ones I share the blood... nothing to me. My family that is my friends are everything to me. I love you all

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Three of my meanings

Theres three meanings to life for me t hat I live by. Those are 1. Love is always required. 2. Friends to keep you company and love you. The third is Helping everyone to be happy... what did you expect to say family ... if you did you must not know me. I love my friends. They piece me back together when I fall apart. I do need the love and my friends. I also give it back to people as well. I love my friends so very much. I wish all my friends happiness.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


past two days or so I have been thinking about my dad alot. I remember all the times we had. Even lastnight I dreamed my fav memory of him holding me as I slept. I love him and miss those times. It was ok if I was scared, it was ok if I were in need of someone to hug. He was there always was. I had him in my life then the day comes to change it all. Nothing I is really ok. When I am scared it isnt ok. When I need someone to hug I am all alone. one day can change ur damn life. You finally see the world for the shit that it is. It takes and steals from you. Thee is love and happiness. Im happy now ... just not as happy as i'd like.